Sunday, April 1, 2012

Yummy "Milk-Making" Cookies


"Umm, I have to eat four cookies a day Travis.  GET OFF MY BACK!" That's right people, I am taking four "doses" of chocolatey goodness per day.  This has been a result of looking for a natural remedy to boost my breast milk supply. And.  It. Works.  BOOM.  Did that just blow your mind? Cause it totally blew mine when a couple of hours after eating two of these cookies my breasts were noticably more full.  You're welcome, Scarlett..... and Travis. 

Travis and I often refer to breast milk as liquid gold.  It feeds and nurishes your child, helps fight off infections, cures pink eye, helps you lose that baby weight, and if you let it sit, turns into diamonds! Okay, no diamonds, but still, that is some amazing stuff!  I have been in a state of paranoia ever since I had Scarlett that I would not be able to maintain enough milk to sustain her.  This comes from starving my poor precious little boy!  It still seriously pains me to think about.  Around 6 months old Brody had lost some weight and was looking entirely too skinny.  There are pictures that I still cannot look at without almost crying from that time period.  How was I suppose to know I was starving him?! He was still nursing and wasn't crying or freaking out.  In fact, he was very happy.  None the less, I was not able to keep my supply up in order to keep breast feeding him and it broke my heart.  I was determined to nurse him up to a year and felt like a failure.  I wanted to be very prepared this time around.  I looked up suppliments, teas, and foods that are said to boost your supply when needed.  I started taking Mothers Milk herbal suppliments and they were not helping.  Back to the drawing board.  That is when I stumbled upon this recipe.  Sure, they look good, but do they work?  Only one way to find out.  I went to my local organic/health food store to get the ground flax seed and the brewer's yeast.  I looked all over for the pastry flour but no luck.  So the following is my tweaked version on the original recipe. 
"Milk Making" Cookies

  • 1/2 cup butter, melted
  • 1/2 cup vegetable oil
  • 3/4 cup sugar
  • 3/4 cup brown sugar, firmly packed
  • 4 tbsp water
  • 2 tbsp ground flax seed
  • 2 eggs
  • 1 tsp vanilla
  • 1 cup whole wheat flour
  • 3/4 cup cake flour
  • 1/4 cup all purpose flour
  • 1 tsp baking soda
  • 1 tsp salt
  • 3 cups rolled oats
  • 2 cups semi-sweet chocolate chips  (So I like more chocolate, SO WHAT?!)
  • 4 tbsp brewer's yeast
Preheat oven to 350. In a small bowl, mix the ground flax seed and water and let sit for 3-5 min.  Beat butter, oil, sugar, and brown sugar until no lumps occur.  Add eggs, mix well.  Add flax seed mix and vanilla, mix well.  In a seperate bowl sift together all flour, brewer's yeast, baking soda, and salt.  Add dry ingredients to butter mix.  Stir in oats one cup at a time and then chocolate chips.  Drop by spoonful onto cookie sheet and bake 10-12 min. 
When I was done making these I exclaimed "What am I feeding the whole neighborhood?!"  This recipe makes over two dozen!  I am going to attempt to freeze half of them for later use.  They are delicious, a different texture than the normal cookie, but still delicious.  Hope you enjoy and that if you needed this for a struggling breast milk supply, I hope you are leaking from engorgement in a few hours!

Thursday, March 29, 2012

Friday the 13th, Scarlett's Birth Day



All of my life I have dreamt of having children.  I am the youngest of seven and being a mother, in my opinion,is the most important role a woman can have.  Now, that being said, I have always thought about having a girl.  I have four older sisters and ten nieces.  Our family is dominated by girls! (I feel for my brothers, oye!) So, it seems that Scarlett was a long time coming.  I had prayed and prayed for this little girl for 5 months straight.  Once I was pregnant, I prayed and prayed that I would be a perfect vessel for her to grow within.  Heavenly Father answered my prayers, once again.  I want to remember the day her sweet little spirit made its arrival into our lives. I want to keep it fresh in my mind.  I have been saying that to myself for 10 whole weeks now! (Why am I such a procrastinator?! Ugh.)  Here's to hoping it's as accurate as the day of.


At each check up in my third trimester I was told that my baby was "head down and ready, already."  Wow! There is no way I am going to make it to my due date! FALSE!!! This little girl is a trickster.  I eventually gave up the idea of her coming early.  Although I get epidurals for my deliveries, I was very against being induced.  Only one thing could make me even consider it, and that would be my Mother.  I am hopelessly and admittedly a Mommy's girl.  She totally makes everything okay when I am in crisis, or in this case pain.  So, living in Crapport, Louisiana (as I have so fondly named it), and her living in Jacksonville, FL and only having so much time off of work for the visit, we had to at least try and plan something.  Slowly, but surely, induction seemed not so bad to me as long as it meant having my mom for the maximum amount of time that I possibly could.  My due date was Friday, January 13th.  Is it weird that I was a little freaked out about this?  Even my OB was like "are you sure you want to be induced on Friday the 13th?!"  As if you aren't anxious enough as it is, you know, about to bring a HUMAN BEING into the world and all.  It's a bit humorous that we are all so supersticious, even if we think we aren't.  We ended up booking my mother a flight out for the 11th and I decided that if I had not gone into labor by the due date, then Friday the 13th it was!


Thursday, January 12th was a pretty exciting day.  I kept thinking that I would be holding my sweet little girl in about 24 hours.  What a weird feeling.  Anticipation for that sort of thing is really something you cannot describe.  We were scheduled for induction at 5:00am and that meant I needed to wake up at 3:30 to prepare.  When I laid down to go to bed that night, I noticed that I was feeling Scarlett in areas that I had never felt her moving before.  Hmm.  That's weird.  I mentioned it to Travis and then we drifted off to sleep.   I was violently awakened about an hour later by what was undoubtedly a contraction!  Holy crap! I was going into labor... and it hurt! It was a long one too, followed by another long one only minutes later.  I stood up and said "TRAVIS! I just had a contraction!"  He woke up and I then went to the bathroom.  And that was it.  Yep, no more contractions. Nothing. I couldn't believe it.  Oh well, I was still tired and went back to bed just knowing that I would wake up to more contractions or perhaps my water breaking.  (By the way, Travis didn't even remember this happening.  This is insane considering his reaction to this happening when I was in labor with Brody.  Most of you know that hilarious story.)  My alarm went off at 3:30am, as scheduled.  We quietly got ready and left Brody with my Mother and Mother-in-law.  Travis' sister, Michele, was going to meet us at the hospital a little later on.  Then off we went to have a baby.


It was so strange to schedule to have a baby.  My water broke naturally with my first born 5 days early so, this was really a sureal experience for me.  With no great urgency we checked in downstairs and then went up to our room in L&D.  We were greeted by a not so personable nurse (who was replaced only two hours later by an awesome one) who checked us in and had me change into my hospital gown.  The events of the day were explained to me as the following: We will give you the gel to help your cervix soften and hopefully this sends you into natural labor.  If that does not happen, then we will give you pitocin to start contractions and hopefully this will send you into natural labor.  If that does not happen, then if the baby is fully engaged and things are somewhat moving along, we will break your water and then you are definately going into labor.  Alright.  Sounds good.  Let's get this show on the road people!  At the first check, my cervix was 1cm dialated and I was 25% effaced.  Soon after I got the gel to soften my cervix my contractions started.  They were not painful, just uncomfortable.  Okay, I can handle that, no problem.  My next check was four hours later.  At this point Dr. Bellman (LOVE HER!) had come to see me, talk to me, and check me.  Surely there had been some progress.  Nope.  None.  Still 1cm and still 25% effaced.  This time Dr. Bellman tells me that Scarlett is not head down and therefor not engaged.  WHAT?!  We were all so shocked.  This baby that had been "ready, already" for months had moved her little body diagnally the night before her due date! That would explain me feeling her in places I hadn't felt her before.  What a little stinker!  Dr. Bellman thought this was pretty funny.  She assured me that the pitocin would kick up my contractions and hopefully help her to get into position.  Funny thing is that when they started the pitocin, my contractions slowed down.  A lot.  Interesting.  Travis and I went back to waiting.  I was still having contractions, they just weren't as hard or as close together anymore.  Four hours later and the doctor checks me again.  Nothing.  You've got to be kidding me.  NOTHING?  Nothing at all? Nope, nothing.  This is when Dr. Bellman says to me "You now have to make a decision.  You have to decide whether you want to continue and have me break your water, which will be you committing to this labor.  By that I mean if I break your water and she does not move into position, you will be committing to a C-section.  I know you do not want that.  Your other option is to stop the pitocin, stop your contractions, and go home."  What???  Did I just hear you correctly??  C-section or go home?  Those both suck.  Seriously suck. Great.  I just kind of sat there.  Obviously this was a decision I couldn't just make right then and there because both options sucked.  If I went home, I just went through over 8 hours of contractions for nothing but good grief a C-section was not an option for me.  I asked to be taken off of the pitocin and if I could sit up and try to help little miss priss into position while I try and make up my mind.  Dr. Bellman agreed and said she would be back in an hour to see what I wanted to do.  I was going home.  I knew it, I just didn't want to quite admit it yet.  My mother and Michele were there at this point and we all were kind of dumbfounded.  They stopped the pitocin and Travis helped me to position the bed into a chair.  I then proceeded to push and push and push my stomach in hopes to move her.  Almost immediately after they stopped the pitocin my contractions became harder and harder.  About thirty minutes after the doctor left I was in immense pain.  I mean, can't talk, gripping the rail, borderline crying pain.  I remember with one contraction I was gripping the rail of the bed shaking my head back and forth telling everyone to "SHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!"  (I am amazed at the will-power of the women who willingly have natural births.  I do not have that kind of will-power.)  All I could think about was where in the hell was my doctor?!?!? If I wasn't going to have this baby and was going home then for the love of all that is holy, stop my contractions and get me out of here! One hour passed and the nurse said that Dr. Bellman was stuck in another delivery and would be in shortly.  She kept asking me if I wanted to have her paged but I knew I could tough it out until she came.  Thirty minutes later I was crying and saying "no, please no..." as I felt another contraction starting.  PAGE THE DOCTOR!!! I thought I could hold out but I was starting to have a melt down.  I couldn't even think straight anymore and was exhausted going on 10 hours of labor and 2 hours of intense contractions.  She came in and before she decided to give me the medicine to stop my contractions and send me home, she wanted to check me one last time.  Fine.  Whatever it takes.  I am just ready to either have an epidural or go home.  But no epidural without my water breaking so I am ready to go home.  She asked my mom and Michele to step out of the room and when she checked me she said "OH MY GOSH! She moved! You are 4cm and 50% effaced!  You are having this baby today!"  I instantly burst into tears.  I was so happy and relieved.  Even thinking about that moment makes me tear up.  Travis kissed me and held my hand as she broke my water and assured me that all will be okay.  (I love that man.)  The doctor knew I wanted the epidural and went to go get the anesthesiologist.  My mother and Michele came back in the room and were shocked when we told them I was in labor.  I distinctly remember my mom looking confused and saying "WHAT?!" It's like we tricked her.  I don't know why this strikes me as humorous, but it does. 


Ten minutes later, yes only ten, the anesthesiologist came in to administer my epidural.  He asked me how I was doing and when I answered him he immediately said "You aren't from here are you?"  To this day I don't know why he said that or how he knew, but I wish I would have asked him.  He told me he had been to Jacksonville and loved it.  I thought that was a good sign.  If you have never had an epidural, they want you to sit still while they are doing it.  This seems impossible to a woman in labor.  I could not sit still when a contraction hit, my entire body would tighten up and rock back and forth.  The only thing that might even make me sit still would be the possibility of not having to feel another contraction.  You just have to keep telling yourself to not move and you will feel so much better.  Sweet success!!  After that epidural kicked in, it was like an entirely different day.  I was laughing and talking and high-fiving.  Okay, not high-fiving, but I would have if someone offered.  I will say though that I was unbelievably exhausted.  I was going to try and take a nap since Dr. Bellman told me she didn't expect me to have the baby until late into the night and at this point it was only around 2:45pm.  No such luck.  I sat there and talked to everybody for a while.  I started to feel the contractions on my left side and so the anesthesiologist came back and boosted my epidural.  Sweet relief once again.  About an hour and a half after the initial epidural, I told my mom I was starting to feel a lot of pressure.  A lot of pressure.  I called my nurse and asked if she could check and sure enough, only about two hours after breaking my water, Scarlett's head was crowning.  The nurse was shocked and had the desk call Dr. Bellman.  I remember telling Travis how tired I was and I remember thinking "How am I going to push? I am so exhausted."  The doctor was there in about 5 minutes and we began pushing.  I loved that it was just me and Travis.  My mom and Michele waited outside in the hallway.  (Where they were told repeatedly NOT to wait. Ha! Rebels.)  Travis was a rock.  He helped me muster up the strength I needed and I ended up pushing only three times. 


And there she was.  They immediately put her in my arms.  "Hey baby!  Hey sweet girl!  We've been waiting for you."  Our happy, healthy, beautiful little Scarlett Paige Geiger had made her entrance at 4:47pm.  She weighed 7 lbs 9 oz, and measured 20.5 inches long.  Travis followed her around the room as they cleaned and attended to her.  From that point on, it was a new experience for us as parents.  When we had Brody, this is the part where suddenly there was a flood of staff in our room and they told me they had to take him to the NICU.  I cried for three hours straight.  So knowing that she was going to be with us the remainder of the time in the hospital filled us with joy.  The very first time you nurse your baby is so special.  It is an intense bonding moment that you will never forget.  It was no different with Scarlett.  Everyone came in to see her and hold her and then they moved me to my room upstairs.  I look back on that night and remember how quiet and peaceful it was.  Just me, Travis, and Scarlett.  She latched great and we spent the night staring at her and kissing her.  It is amazing how much having a child can do for your relationship with your spouse.  It brings more love, more patience, more support, and more respect for one another.  I know I say this all of the time but I love the way that Travis loves our children.  I married a wonderful man and an even better father. 


So now our family of 3 is a family of 4.  Brody came to meet Scarlett the following day and seemed to not care too much about her.  I took this as an appropriate reaction.  I had missed my little boy very much and was so excited to see him and kiss his sweet little face.  We left the hospital on Sunday and brought our daughter home to her family. 


She is a blessing in every sense of the word.  She brings joy to our lives daily and our love for her grows with each passing moment.  I cannot wait to see what else her little spirit brings to our family as she grows.  She currently loves to smile at us and jabbers like crazy!  She also poops on her clothes at least once a day, and while this drives me crazy, I also think it's kind of funny.  We are enjoying every second.








Brody, of course, had to update his blog too.

Monday, March 26, 2012

Good Morning! Go to Time-Out...

When you are 2 years old, you are just like everybody else.  You have your good days and you have your bad ones.  It’s just when you are 2 you have no idea how to express what you are feeling so in turn you drive your mother completely insane and get sent to “Time-Out” 3 times in about 20 minutes.  This was our morning.  In fact, it was our first 20 minutes of the day!  Poor Brody and poor me!  So, when our day starts off like today did, I have to stop and recognize that he is definitely having a bad day and might need a little more attention from his Mommy.  This was not an easy decision because I battled between the logics of “Well, what if by paying him more attention I promote this behavior?  Almost reward it?” and “I think giving him some real one on one time will help him, and my sanity, through this day.”  I also decided that when he is acting out so much it helps me to go over all of the adorable things he is into lately and BOOM! It gave me the idea for this post!  So while he is now napping, I will fondly think of him before he wakes up and pushes my patience for the remainder of the day.  Who knows?  Maybe he just needed a good nap.
"The smile on his face melts my heart!  He loves his Sissy.... even when she is crying."

Brody is really into basketball.  I mean REALLY into it.  So my brother, James, got him this sweat band for Christmas.  Hilarious.

He loves any kind of ball.  Marbles included.

He loves playing "Superman" with his father.  What is "superman" you ask? ANY kind of play where Travis throws him.  He just happens to be wearing an awesome pink cape this time.

I have a very sweet natured little boy.  This picture of my mom holding him and Scarlett reminds me of it.

He is going through a Band-Aid phase.  I got a box of Angry Birds Band-Aids and now he always needs a "Gan-Gaid" on his forehead somewhere.  Plus he just looks absurd.

I bet you didn't know that Brody also has a blog.

Brody watched TV like this for a long time.  Whenever I do his laundry, he can't resist a good ole sit and stare session inside of his laundry basket.
Meet Puppy.  Brody sleeps with him every nap and every night.  He insisted that Puppy needs a diaper too. 

This is the move Brody does every single time he hears the bad ass tunes of The Fresh Beat Band. The song "Rockstar" particularly.
This boy LOVES to color! This is a very new thing and I am enjoying it so much!

We made a fort out of the pillows, couch, and ottoman yesterday.  Awesomeness ensued.


Thursday, March 18, 2010


My Best Friend

As a product of a divorced family, I have never really known how a marriage truly works. When I was younger it never occurred to me that it was something to be worked on, something that you needed, and something that if you did not have, you would miss. My first revelation of this was probably in my late teens. I was sitting at my first boyfriend's house with his mother and two sisters, and his father walked in the door from work. I felt it. I felt the unity, the wholeness of the family coming together with that one person joining in. At that moment it hit me that I was missing out on something. I caught a glimpse of what a marriage was. Through the years I searched for a couple that I was very close with that could help guide me and be an example to me since I really didn't have one. My father and step-mother lived in another state and I didn't really see them very often. (Mainly due to the fact that I was a teenager who didn't care about spending time with my family.) My sister, Lori, and her husband, Rick, were naturally my shining example. Loving, kind, spiritual, gentle, honest, supportive, and most of all happy. (Alright Rick and Lori... don't let this go to your heads. I can easily replace your names with... uhh... well... okay I cant.) I honestly never, ever, thought it possible for myself.


Travis entered my life by way of my roommate and long time friend, Erin. He had just moved back to the States from a three year tour in England for the Air Force. He often visited Erin when he took leave. Erin and Travis grew up together. Their parents have been best friends for something like 30 years. They tell everybody they are brother and sister. I am getting off track, anyway, Erin told me Travis was coming to stay with us for 30 days. I honestly didn't pay any attention to it and before I knew it he was at our house. At the time he arrived, I was in the "I do NOT want a relationship" stage and from what I could tell, he was too. For the next 30 days we spent every day together. Just friends, getting to know each other and hanging out. I loved that Travis was just Travis. He wasn't trying to be anything or trying to impress anybody. I could totally feel that he was just a good guy. Right before Travis left to go back to work, he finally made a move on me! It totally threw me for a loop and I did not see it coming. Of course at this point I had feelings for him as well and we started dating. He assured me he would come visit me every other weekend. He kept his promise and I totally fell in love with him. (Even though he said it first... no big deal.)


As everybody knows, I found out I was pregnant on December 13th. Not exactly the way we would have liked things to go. Travis, from the get-go was supportive and excited. This could have gone one of two ways: either turned into a complete disaster or be the best thing that could have ever happened to me. I know that God had this plan for me. I have always had a way of sabotaging my relationships. I know that had this not happened the way it did, I would have most likely done the same with me and Travis. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me. He makes me feel so comfortable in my own skin, which is a first for me... ever. I cannot explain the certainty I have about us. I just know what a great thing we have and that he is everything I have ever wanted in a husband. Travis makes me melt, he makes me laugh, he makes me believe in us. He calms me down when I get a little too feisty and reassures me that it will be okay when I am upset. It is amazing to watch him with our son, he is such an extraordinary father. He makes me pray more, because I know I need to thank God each day that I have him. I cannot wait to marry him and to spend all of my days on this earth by his side. Plus he's got a cute butt... that helps a little.